When My Identity Changed Forever

I am forever changed……..

My cell phone rings… My daughter’s doctor is on the other line…..feels like she is a million miles away……and it’s the worst news I  have ever heard.

“Your daughter’s thyroid biopsy came back Mrs. Dugan, and I am sorry to say that it’s papillary cancer.”

What? What did you just say?

Oh my gosh….I couldn’t believe what I was hearing. The amount of emotion that welled up through my soul. Hysterically crying and sobbing.

She just kept talking…running through all the steps with me as if she was reading a check list off to me. She goes on to say: “Then she may have to have that test…Then after that, she may have to go for that scan.”

Oh my gosh…shut up!!! Let me breathe with what you just dropped in my lap!

I had to hang up with her. The amount of words that came out of her mouth in that 10 seconds was more than I could bare.

I took a deep breathe…and I instantly felt the calmness of God and heard this verse:

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But how sweet of Him to put her name inside of this verse: “For I know the plans I have for Celena,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper her and not to harm her, plans to give her hope and a future.”

I literally felt His presence and I knew that He was in control.

But, what happens to people who get bad news about their children and they don’t know God’s word and how to handle what “could be”?

What exactly happens when our identity is forever changed?

This…. satan rushes by our side as soon as we feel helpless. As soon as we feel weak, he rides our shoulders with tormenting thoughts.

He starts with this:

“She’s doomed ya know? Her life is over. That’s it Cora…you failed her. You will watch her suffer because it’s what I am made of.”

Guilty…guilty….guilty feelings just rage over us. All we can feel is the pain of how can this be? What did I do wrong to deserve this? Why my child? Why isn’t He protecting her? Questioning God…doubting God….satan running the lies over and over…..

UGH!!! SHUT UP!!!!

SHUT .YOUR. LIES. UP. SATAN!!!!!!

People, satan will do anything to question and pervert the character of God with his crafty words. It’s what he did with Eve in the Garden of Eden. ~The serpent (who was demon possessed) questioned Eve’s ability to hear truth from God. He clouded her mind with doubt….(NIV) Genesis 3:1 says: “Did God really say, you must not eat from any tree in the garden?”

I had to switch from the lies…to the TRUTH as fast as I could ….SATAN IS LIES!!!!!!!! He is the father of lies people!

Immediately I went into prayer battle! PRAYER!!!!

LORD…….YOU PROMISED ME YOU WOULDN’T HURT HER, YOU PROMISED ME YOU HAVE A PLAN FOR HER, YOU PROMISED ME THAT YOU WOULD PROSPER HER (Jeremiah 29:11)

LORD…….YOU PROMISE US, NO WEAPON FORMED AGAINST US SHALL PROSPER (Isaiah 54:17)

LORD…..YOU PROMISED US THAT YOU HAVE BEEN PIERCED FOR OUR TRANSGRESSIONS, YOU HAVE BEEN CRUSHED FOR OUR INIQUITIES (SINS), THE PUNISHMENT THAT WAS BROUGHT ONTO YOU, AND BY YOUR WOUNDS WE ARE HEALED. (Isaiah 53:5)

JESUS…YOU DIDN’T DIE ON THAT CROSS FOR NOTHING!!! REVEAL YOUR POWER TO US IN THE NAME OF JESUS!!

I have stayed on my knees since all this transpired! Begging God for mercy on her life.

Reminding Him of His word..His promises!!

What God did was amazing  all through this trial, He sent people to us. They encouraged us…they spoke life over us…they made sure we were comforted and secured in God’s word. They prayed with us, over us…for us…in the beginning, we couldn’t even pray. We were so devastated.

So. The day came: She had her total thyroidectomy, on August 24th, 2016….and the pathology report came back not as we had hoped.

Out of the 11 lymph nodes, 5 of them had cancer.

Here’s what we learned and embraced: This cancer is 100% curable.

PRAISE GOD…

Today, October 7th, she is doing well. She is still getting adjusted to her meds…but she has inspired so many people with hope because of her age.

My husband and I have embraced each other more than ever through this. Our vows have become stronger with each other.

Our marriage journey has changed forever. If you can imagine, for the good! For sickness and in health, even if it means for our children. For rich or poor, even if it means for our children.

God gave us this trial, to grow us, to count on Him more. Our faith walk has transpired to a whole new higher level.

I am thankful for what God is doing through my family. He gets the Glory in all of this, because He is creating something new…in all of us.

So tell me…what has God done through you? What new thing has He given you, that you thought was a negative thing, but turned out to be positive?

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Many blessings over you…

Cora

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